Enduring All

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Does love truly endure all? Does it have limits? Is it always patient?
When do we say enough? Do we ever say enough?

When we think about love we have for our partner or our child, do we ever draw lines and should we?

My opinion is, love needs to endure all. Maybe not in a relationship but with family yes. At the end of the day, family, that's all you have. Friends will come and go, but your family is suppose to be there. We may have our limits, we may say enough but no matter what family is what you have at the end of the day.
When love doesn't endure all, where do go? When we say enough is enough.. who are we hurting more the other person or ourselves?
We may get hurt if its family or a partner, but you need to look into your heart and realize that no matter what mistake we make, no matter how big or small, we need to say I love you and I'm there.
Love isn't saying look what I have done for you. Love isn't saying my heart can not and will not endure any more pain from you.

Love is saying that no matter what I'm there for you. We all need to realize that people fall, and sometimes we fall hard.
We all have fallen and we all need help to get back up. But when people who say I love you, say enough, my heart is unable to endure anymore. Where does that leave you?
There are times when we need to pick ourselves up, but without someone there to say I'm here for you, you tend to be lost.

It has been said that we hurt the ones we love the most. That still isn't a reason to hurt someone, but in reality do we really realize that we are hurting them in that moment.

When it comes to family, and they start to shut the door on you, who do you have left besides yourself and God?
We are unable to always turn to God, he is unable to always lead us in the right direction. When people who we truly love start to close the door on us, who do we turn to?
How are we able to find the right path when we have no guidance?
Faith will carry you a long way and no matter what you have faith, its all about having faith in something.
But without the love from family or your partner where do you turn to?
This is why I feel love needs to endure all, with out what are we?
The world isn't as beautiful as some people see it. There is ugliness, there is death every day. There is pain every day. But that is why we have love, to help carry us through these hard times. No matter where you are in your life, if its going great or terrible with out love we fall and we will fall hard.

Endure and overcome....

Just Human

In this life we all will make decisions that we may not be proud of, that may lead us down a long horrible path, but at the end of it all, you will get to where you need to be.
You made a decision, you put one foot forward and kept moving. Did what you had to do, to other people that decision is wrong, but for you it may be right.

We can't change our past, words that have been said, can't fix things that are broken, but you can hold your head high and look towards the light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone has a skeleton or two in their closet, no one's past is perfect, no one should be the first to judge.
There are days when the silver lining is barely silver and you have to look extra hard to see what good may come out of today. Then you have those days that the light at the end of the tunnel was filled with pain, but you made it at least.

I have tried for so long to please other people, to be what someone else wanted or to fit in the box. What ended up happening was that I couldn't live that way, I let go of life and all maturity and ran from certain responsibilities. I made decisions that I have to live with.. I live with them, I'm the one that wakes up everyday and faces my own worst enemy.. Myself.
At the end of each day I need to answer to God for everything that I may have done wrong - or right!

I'm not perfect far from it, nor do I wish to be perfect. With every mistake, failure, success, and goal I reach, I become a better person.
Most of our choices we make in life create a butterfly effect but at the end of the day these choices effect only you more than anyone else.

I finally enjoy life for what it is. Its a painful, beautiful experience and only I can stop myself. I am the only person that will make me fail.
So I'm not the person that some people wanted me to be, I didn't do something right, I made a mistake or wrong choice.
I'm the person I want to be. I didn't do something right, I made a mistake, and a wrong choice! You know what - it feels great, I'm human.
I did something right in my life, I made a right choice, I took a right path. I did things that you may not have seen, but at the end of my day God knows what I have done.

I cried because I ended up in places for wrong choices I made in my life, I also have cried because someone else made a choice that hurt me. We all have been in this position.
What makes a person differ from another?

Personally, nothing really. We all feel, we all make mistakes, we all fall, we all have success.

Life is what we make it, at times its hard to move on from pain, especially when its a tremendous pain, but we can't be bitter.
At the end of this tunnel there is a light, granted the tunnel may be filled with pain, anger, hate, but there is a light.
It took me a while to realize that, to realize that the more bitter I am towards life and other people - the more I will fail.
Its up to me to make today great. It's up to me to give that person a fighting chance and to stop judging. It's up to me to not be so bitter towards life.

I can't answer for every wrong I have done in my life, apart is glad for that because I have made some stupid choices. But man, some of those stupid choices put a big smile on my face at that time.
I don't fit into every one's box, I barely fit in with my family!
But I'm happy with who I am, I can hold my head high and say - with or with out you being behind me I will do everything that I want. I will succeed.

I'm my greatest obstacle.

Finding the Fight

There are some days when the silver lining is just to difficult to see. When everything you once knew, you second guess.
Life is hard and difficult, full of joy and happiness, full of sadness and sorrow.

We all have been at points where we want to give up, where the need or will to go on isn't there. With every breath you take it hurts and you just want the pain to go away. I know I have layed on the floor cried and begged God to make this pain go away, to make everything better.
He can't make everything better, you need to start that yourself. Having the faith in God will help, but you need to believe that you are capable of picking yourself up and keep on fighting.

I know many times I have been at the point where I feel like I am drowning and there is no sign of hope, but there is. Whether you see it at the point or not, there is hope, in God, in friends, in family, even in yourself.
My life isn't even close to what I thought it would be, I never thought I would be here. But I must be here for a reason, this life that I am living is happening for one reason or another. Even with the sorrow and pain, the joy and happiness, this life that I never thought I would have is meant for something.

I do question God, I think we all do. What his motives are, why certain things happen to us and when the days are hard, why are we here.

So I don't have the white picket fence, I don't have the picture perfect family, I have my issues, I have problems, I have my own demons.
Who doesn't?
This is my only life and underneath all this pain and sorrow, there is a reason for this fight. There is a reason for me to be here.
Don't give up, no matter how hard it is to pick yourself up at times, keep moving.
Remember two powerful words "I choose"..

I choose to keep fighting no matter how hard it is because at the end of the day, there is a reason for this fight.
I choose....

Random Thoughts For The Day

This life is crazy, amazing, filled with sorrow and happiness. At the end of the day life is what we make of it.

We all have made mistakes, some mistakes may seem unforgivable, some you may not even be able to excuse, but in the end we all make mistakes. The hardest thing about life is trying to figure out where you stand, especially when it is on your own two feet. People always try to knock you down, say things that they know bother you, but as long as you know in your heart who you truly are you can over come any obstacle. But is that totally true?

Some people say you never have to prove yourself to anyone but yourself. But when we mess up or hurt someone either knowingly or unknowingly - we are stuck proving ourselves. We need to prove that we are worth something, and we will jump over any obstacle to prove to them that we are sincere. But in the end where does that get us? Are we being ourselves or trying to live up to someone else's standards?
Everyone has their own life experiences, we may not be the picture of perfection but who can define perfect?

I have made many mistakes, some of them changed my life forever. I admits my mistakes and I take the road that I have made myself. I may not be as mature as people say I should be. But honestly, who can define how mature you should be for your age? Everyone is mature to an extent, but how can we sit and say act your age. Its okay to be a child at heart. Its okay to fail - but you need to try again. I have alot to learn in this life, but so does everyone else. That's one amazing thing about life, is that there is so much that each of us need to learn. If its from book smarts to street smarts we all have our share that we need to figure out.

We judge everyone we meet, we cast the first stone, is the right? In the bible it states " He without sin cast thy first stone..". How many times have each of us done it? But when it happens to you, how do you feel?
It's not our place to judge each other, we are suppose to give each other a chance to prevail - to succeed - to become something or someone.

At the end of the day, I accept myself for who I am. With all my flaws, with every mistake, with everything that may be beautiful to someone. Just live life - some people may not agree with that, but in reality we can not plan everything. Love the life we have, even if there is sorrow. Take chances, even if we fail. As long as you never fail yourself.

I'm who I am today with all my mistakes, with all my flaws, with all the right have done some where along the way. I'm this person because of what I have done.
Only time can tell, if someone really changes, if they are really sincere.. If they say who they are, is who they truly are. Never close the door all the way. Everyone deserves that.